semoga ALLAH mencucuri rahmat ke atas roh saudaraku, Hajah Laila Bt Rahman

...siapa sahaja tidak akan menjangka dia akan pergi meninggalkan kami secepat itu.
begitu juga saya.saya dapat panggilan dari kakak di sibu dan mengatakan bahawa ila(nama panggilan) sudah tiada lagi. saya tergamam dan cuba untuk bertenang.
Kali terakhir saya bertemu dengan arwah adalah pada hari raya lepas.semasa dia masih dalam keadaan berpantang selepas melahirkan anak sulungnya yang bernama Wawa(nama panggilan).
Begitu jauh untuk balik ke kampung halaman.Tetapi hati sungguh kuat untuk balik.bila difikirkan dan dinasihatkan oleh ahli keluarga, saya kembali cuba untuk bertenang. Minggu hadapan rasanya saya akan balik kampung, akan terus ke pusara arwah.

Ya ALLAH, tempatkan lah saudara hambaMu ini di kalangan orang-orang yang beriman.Amin...

Al-fatihah...

Taylor Swift - Back To December

I'm so glad you made time to see me

How's life? Tell me, how's your family?

I haven't seen them in a while

You've been good, busier than ever

We small talk, work and the weather

Your guard is up, and I know why

Because the last time you saw me

Is still burned in the back of your mind

You gave me roses, and I left them there to die

So this is me swallowing my pride

Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night

And I go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you

Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine

I go back to December, turn around and make it alright

I go back to December all the time

These days, I haven't been sleeping

Staying up, playing back myself leaving

When your birthday passed, and I didn't call

Then I think about summer, all the beautiful times

I watched you laughing from the passenger side

And realized I loved you in the fall

And then the cold came, the dark days

When fear crept into my mind

You gave me all your love, and all I gave you was goodbye

So this is me swallowing my pride

Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night

And I go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you

Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine

I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind

I go back to December all the time

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile

So good to me, so right

And how you held me in your arms that September night

The first time you ever saw me cry

Maybe this is wishful thinking

Probably mindless dreaming

But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right

I'd go back in time and change it, but I can't

So if the chain is on your door, I understand

This is me swallowing my pride

Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night

And I go back to December

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you

Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine

I go back to December, turn around and make it alright

I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind

I go back to December all the time, all the time